10.30. VB után

 A VB óta számos gondolat és érzés öntött el, különböző hullámokban. Nem könnyű ezeket kezelni. 

A hibáztatási folyamatot sikerült leállítanom. Hosszú út áll még előttem, nem könnyű megemészteni azt a rengeteg mindent, ami a VB előtt és a VB-n történt. Nem beszélve az eredményről, ami majdnem összedőlt. 

Különösen hálás vagyok ilyenkor olyan külső támogatásnak, visszajelzésnek, ami abszolút előrelendíti, elősegíti a feldolgozás folyamatát. 

Belekezdeni sem könnyű. De szeretnék, csak az idő is kevés rá. A mai nap utazással telt La Verkin-ből Las Vegasba. Érnek a gondolatok.

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